Today I am feeling sort of annoyed. I do not really feel like blogging or doing anything really. I am hoping this is a detox phase. Being unmotivated and swamped with work is not a good combination. Terrible combination actually.
I find it really frustrating that the scale is still up and down. I sort of figured there would be no ups at all. I have not consumed more juice than before so it is puzzling to see it go up. Maybe this is why I am annoyed today. I guess this is all part of the process and the journey. Nothing worth while is ever easy. Or so I am told. I will not admit defeat though.
I think my body has been through a number of crazy things and things that have taken their toll in the past few years. These things did not happen all over night so the recovery won't either. I am realizing on this fast more and more I need to learn and accept patience. I have gotten out of the habit of doing yoga other than my morning routine. I think that will be my challenge for next week. Ease back into at least 10 mins of yoga every day. Meditation and moving your body is so powerful. I sort of want this fast to lead me to new patterns to include in my daily life afterwards.
Today I opened the fridge to find my cucumber and saw some hummus dip. Although hummus is relatively healthy - I seem to have problems digesting it and even more problematic is the fact that I gorge on it if I decide to even consume a spoonful. I realized when I saw this that my immediate thought was to open a bag of carrots and devour. Clearly I still have work to do. Although I am not craving solid foods and I never ate unhealthy I seem to use food even the healthy stuff to deal with stress. This is something that must change. 14 days may seem like a long time but not long enough to change.
Here comes another day tomorrow and hopefully a happier more relaxed day. Namiste.
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