I have literally been sitting on my bed listening to music and picking shellac off my nails for hours. I am in a complete state of blah. It's not that I do not have energy but I feel my motivation is gone. Not with regards to this fast but just in general. I feel like doing nothing. I am happy doing nothing. Sort of in my own little musical world. Currently listening to Maroon 5 Pay Phone - explicit version. I feel zen despite the angry lyrics. Interesting moment of realization. This song is quite angry.
I have read that people who do fasts feel the fog leave their head and feel mentally clear. I think part of me is there and part of me is stuck in the drifting fog. Or maybe there isn't any fog and I am just lazy. Hard to say at this point.
I cut back my smoothie intake today. No real reason just sort of did. See what happens tomorrow.
I am excited I have made it to 15 days. Feel a sense of accomplishment that I have not felt in a while. I am still not into the idea of working out but have decided to push myself before next week begins. Tomorrow marks 1 month until my surgery so seems like a fitting day to try something more active than putting in and taking out earbuds out.
;) Cheers!
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