Well this is the side of the gluten free shopping spree you get to hear about. Today I felt both elated, annoyed, upset, doubtful, and off all in one. Not really much to do with the fast. Or maybe it does have to do with the fast. Perhaps the fast makes emotions much stronger since the fog is gone. Much more aware of emotions and the reasons behind them. I was annoyed at a post on facebook and the fact that others seem to have it so much easier. Silly more of a pity me position. But I soon realized I was not annoyed at those things - I was annoyed at the fact that I was nauseated all day. Maybe mad at myself. Mad that I cannot fix the one thing that is most valuable... me... my health... and I. So I took to the computer and ebay and within a few clicks I bought a Hermes Herbag. eeeek. Impulse shop at its finest. I have however been admiring this particular bag for sometime and was waiting for the exact moment to purchase it. I think buying it the way I did and when I did was sort of a way to realize you can either chose to carry your baggage or let it go and start fresh. That is exactly what I choose to do. Let go of my baggage and instead of carrying emotional petty crap and worry and fear and projection I have decided to carry a HERBAG instead. One to which I can empty and fill as much as I desire without harming my health. Perhaps it will harm my ego and my nurture the materialistic side of me that desperately needs to vanish. But then again no one is perfect!
So today I sip green juice and admire my brown HERBAG from afar... ohhh the day it comes in the mail will be a day to remember! Yay!
Goodnight - sweetdreams!
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